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[lifeban]

[this piece of shit and his basic bitch phone]

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[lifeban]

[he can be as subtle as a brick to the face when he wants to be, but he is... shy, in this.

he flushes deeply, hearing the sounds her mouth on him makes. but it doesn't seem entirely fair to stay silent when she's being so enthusiastic, treating him so well. so he parts his lips, lets his shaky little exhale escape with the slightest bit of vocalization, a tiny moan of encouragement.]

[starcinoma]

[ her breath catches in her throat; there's a stirring in her skirt, a gentle prod at dan heng's upper thigh. she pulls away, murmurs into his ear- ]

...do you like it when it hurts a little?

[ she doesn't bother to wait for his response before licking all up the shell of his ear. if he won't vocalize for her, she'll just have to make him. ]

[lifeban]

[he was starting to answer, this is bullying!

(he does like bullying. both ways.)

but the heat of her tongue along the edge of his ear, previously unmolested, gets a little gasp from him.]

[starcinoma]

[ well, that's nice to hear. though she does point out, in her same even voice- ]

That's not an answer.

[lifeban]

I do.

[a little snippish. he was working on it!!!]

[starcinoma]

[ well. that's all she needs to know, isn't it? when she closes her teeth over dan heng's ear, it's gentle, more of a tug than an actual gnaw-

but she bites down nonetheless, her tongue flicking forward against his auricle. ]

[lifeban]

[he is learning his ears are sensitive in the way that happens, sometimes, where it happens to him and he's like oh i guess i knew that and forgot and oh aeons holy shit.

fussy tailtwitches of the sort where the tip of his tail is tickling the back of her knee. and he whines, almost inaudibly soft, in the back of his throat, but still does it.]

[starcinoma]

[ well, that feels nice. a soft chuckle actually escapes her, and even though she's starting to harden up against him the mood is gentler than it has been since her arrival. ]

I like it when you make those sounds.

[ a gentle kiss against his ear, this time - halfway between apology and reminder of the bite. ]

[lifeban]

I could tell.

[hhhhesitates. then, voice softer.]

It's not easy to let them out.

[Aware of Hog, but, that seems like an important distinction to make.]

[starcinoma]

...was it easier when I hurt you?

[ a beat. ]

Is it easier?

[lifeban]

...Yes.

[starcinoma]

...

[ another gentle kiss to the same spot. for a moment, she just lingers there - her lips on his ear, silent and still.

and then she pulls back, looking down into his eyes. ]

Dan Heng. Can I make a request of you?

[lifeban]

[blinking up at her, curious.]

Of course.

[starcinoma]

Tell me if I ever hurt you that much again. Make me stop.

Can you promise me that?

[lifeban]

...I can.

Even for missions, right?

[starcinoma]

[ ...she hesitates. ]

...even for missions. If you'd regret it later, then credits aren't worth it.

[lifeban]

So it's about my feelings on the matter?

[starcinoma]

No. If you're indifferent, then keeping you safe matters more.

[ she should probably just say no violence period. but...

...she doesn't want to. if dan heng wants her to hurt him - then she wants to help him. it's that simple. ]

[lifeban]

Why would I be indifferent?

[starcinoma]

Because my opinion of your self-preservation skills has been steadily dropping since we got here.

[lifeban]

Excuse me?

[starcinoma]

You told me you got stabbed. Then you broke the chair you were sitting in with your tail. Then you went into the basement with me. Then you volunteered to give me your arm, and then went back into the basement.

If you like getting stabbed, then that's... different. Maybe. But if you just don't care about keeping yourself safe, then do that first.

[lifeban]

I didn't get stabbed on purpose. The chair was an accident. You went to the basement too.

[he really can't wrap his head around that last bit give him some time]

[starcinoma]

...you're really keeping yourself safe, then?

[ she. still sounds like she doubts it a little. sorry, dan heng. ]

[lifeban]

I care about keeping myself safe. I'm not looking for death or injury-- I've been working very hard to stay alive for a very long time.

I gave you my arm because I trust you. Not out of indifference.