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[lifeban]

[this piece of shit and his basic bitch phone]

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[starcinoma]

[ well, that feels nice. a soft chuckle actually escapes her, and even though she's starting to harden up against him the mood is gentler than it has been since her arrival. ]

I like it when you make those sounds.

[ a gentle kiss against his ear, this time - halfway between apology and reminder of the bite. ]

[lifeban]

I could tell.

[hhhhesitates. then, voice softer.]

It's not easy to let them out.

[Aware of Hog, but, that seems like an important distinction to make.]

[starcinoma]

...was it easier when I hurt you?

[ a beat. ]

Is it easier?

[lifeban]

...Yes.

[starcinoma]

...

[ another gentle kiss to the same spot. for a moment, she just lingers there - her lips on his ear, silent and still.

and then she pulls back, looking down into his eyes. ]

Dan Heng. Can I make a request of you?

[lifeban]

[blinking up at her, curious.]

Of course.

[starcinoma]

Tell me if I ever hurt you that much again. Make me stop.

Can you promise me that?

[lifeban]

...I can.

Even for missions, right?

[starcinoma]

[ ...she hesitates. ]

...even for missions. If you'd regret it later, then credits aren't worth it.

[lifeban]

So it's about my feelings on the matter?

[starcinoma]

No. If you're indifferent, then keeping you safe matters more.

[ she should probably just say no violence period. but...

...she doesn't want to. if dan heng wants her to hurt him - then she wants to help him. it's that simple. ]

[lifeban]

Why would I be indifferent?

[starcinoma]

Because my opinion of your self-preservation skills has been steadily dropping since we got here.

[lifeban]

Excuse me?

[starcinoma]

You told me you got stabbed. Then you broke the chair you were sitting in with your tail. Then you went into the basement with me. Then you volunteered to give me your arm, and then went back into the basement.

If you like getting stabbed, then that's... different. Maybe. But if you just don't care about keeping yourself safe, then do that first.

[lifeban]

I didn't get stabbed on purpose. The chair was an accident. You went to the basement too.

[he really can't wrap his head around that last bit give him some time]

[starcinoma]

...you're really keeping yourself safe, then?

[ she. still sounds like she doubts it a little. sorry, dan heng. ]

[lifeban]

I care about keeping myself safe. I'm not looking for death or injury-- I've been working very hard to stay alive for a very long time.

I gave you my arm because I trust you. Not out of indifference.

[starcinoma]

[ she listens quietly, the whole while. and finally, when he's spoken his piece, she nods. ]

...then I guess it's about your feelings after all. [ a beat. ] And- I trust you. As long as you think it's okay.

[lifeban]

[hackles lowering. bit by bit.]

...I won't be reckless about it. I promise.

[starcinoma]

[ she lays back onto him with that, sliding her head under his cheek. he might be irritated now. she even understands why. but-

but knowing that he does prioritize his safety, that this isn't just some bad idea? that helps a lot. ]

Okay. Then... I'll keep trying things. As long as you're okay with it.

[lifeban]

[ssssighs and lets the rest of the offense leave him. she doesn't know, because he didn't tell her. he didn't tell anyone.]

I'll tell you, if I'm not.

[starcinoma]

[ she nods into his chest. after a moment, she finally mumbles: ]

...just wanna lie here for a while.

[lifeban]

Okay.

Like this is comfortable enough?

[starcinoma]

...

[ a moment of great thought. and then: ]

I think I might get a crick in my neck like this.